Somewhere along the line I have almost forgotten my goal, which is to be treated for cancer.
When you're first diagnosed for cancer, everyone around you, family, friends, medical people, all react very strongly. They're on it.
You name it, they're there for you. Ask and it shall be granted.
And strangers jump in. They're there to help. Prayer teams just ask your name and they'll give you their all.
Having terminal cancer isn't even a factor. I could have an easily-removable mini-lump and I think people would be just as supportive. I LOVE all you cancer-supportive people. You give us faith in the entire human race, and your strength and positive outlook is so readily absorbed by those of us who need it. Keep it up, you're helping in so many ways that you'll never be aware of. Take it on Faith. . . and keep going.
As the cancer patient here, all of this confuses me mentally in so many ways. I feel like a superstar, but it's only because I've shown my mortality so blatantly. That's OK. . . I love the help, I love the prayers, in whatever form they may take. They all work.
Yesterday I talked to an old close friend from my days in San Francisco. He has been HIV positive since the 1980's. Back then, I was reading "And The Band Played On," which is all about the beginning of AIDS (totally great non-fiction classic!). Which boasted Doris Ober as an editor. Who is a heritage-breed goat associate of mine, and who kindly just mailed me a copy of her new book, "The Alzheimer's Years." She's so on it. And she writes brilliantly. . .
Doris is such an insightful writer of cutting-edge issues and writes so fluidly and engagingly. Get the Book!
Old San Francisco friends remember when AIDS was big, but ARC (Aids Related Complex) was considered to be somehow different and lesser. Then they decided that ARC was a bit silly, because it was really AIDS after all. Then, the byword was "HIV positive." And I lost it from there--I moved away to the boonies and became a wife with kids and different concerns.
So yesterday, with my newfound confidence, I was hoping to maybe tell my HIV-positive friend how to navigate clinical trials. I started by talking about T-cells with cancer.
It turns out that since the 1990's my friend was treated for HIV in a way that now he tests negative for HIV (and continues to do so). T-cell stuff is old news.
Wow. They cured AIDS without my knowing? I don't follow the news, but you think that it would have passed along somehow? THEY CURED AIDS? Really? But then another friend implies maybe not. . and he's a public health specialist in San Francisco. I can't wait until he comes to visit (late June!) to explain all of that.
So I still have stage 4 low grade ovarian cancer. Could they cure that also without my knowing? YES. Yes, they could. Some people just lose sight, lose the fight, or maybe just don't know how to keep looking. When you "sign up" for cancer, nobody sends a note in the mail saying "BTW we cured that".
A decade ago I spent 2 hours per day with the ear-shattering screaming of a colicky baby, but a few months after these penetrating, hearing-damaging cries lightened, I met a parent in the local pharmacy with a similar child. Picking up their colic meds. Oh, they have stuff for that now?
I didn't get the memo.
I am resuming my attempts to find ways to combat my cancer.
Thank you, Julie, for such a strong message of "Don't Give Up!"
When you're first diagnosed for cancer, everyone around you, family, friends, medical people, all react very strongly. They're on it.
You name it, they're there for you. Ask and it shall be granted.
And strangers jump in. They're there to help. Prayer teams just ask your name and they'll give you their all.
Having terminal cancer isn't even a factor. I could have an easily-removable mini-lump and I think people would be just as supportive. I LOVE all you cancer-supportive people. You give us faith in the entire human race, and your strength and positive outlook is so readily absorbed by those of us who need it. Keep it up, you're helping in so many ways that you'll never be aware of. Take it on Faith. . . and keep going.
As the cancer patient here, all of this confuses me mentally in so many ways. I feel like a superstar, but it's only because I've shown my mortality so blatantly. That's OK. . . I love the help, I love the prayers, in whatever form they may take. They all work.
Yesterday I talked to an old close friend from my days in San Francisco. He has been HIV positive since the 1980's. Back then, I was reading "And The Band Played On," which is all about the beginning of AIDS (totally great non-fiction classic!). Which boasted Doris Ober as an editor. Who is a heritage-breed goat associate of mine, and who kindly just mailed me a copy of her new book, "The Alzheimer's Years." She's so on it. And she writes brilliantly. . .
Doris is such an insightful writer of cutting-edge issues and writes so fluidly and engagingly. Get the Book!
Old San Francisco friends remember when AIDS was big, but ARC (Aids Related Complex) was considered to be somehow different and lesser. Then they decided that ARC was a bit silly, because it was really AIDS after all. Then, the byword was "HIV positive." And I lost it from there--I moved away to the boonies and became a wife with kids and different concerns.
So yesterday, with my newfound confidence, I was hoping to maybe tell my HIV-positive friend how to navigate clinical trials. I started by talking about T-cells with cancer.
It turns out that since the 1990's my friend was treated for HIV in a way that now he tests negative for HIV (and continues to do so). T-cell stuff is old news.
Wow. They cured AIDS without my knowing? I don't follow the news, but you think that it would have passed along somehow? THEY CURED AIDS? Really? But then another friend implies maybe not. . and he's a public health specialist in San Francisco. I can't wait until he comes to visit (late June!) to explain all of that.
So I still have stage 4 low grade ovarian cancer. Could they cure that also without my knowing? YES. Yes, they could. Some people just lose sight, lose the fight, or maybe just don't know how to keep looking. When you "sign up" for cancer, nobody sends a note in the mail saying "BTW we cured that".
A decade ago I spent 2 hours per day with the ear-shattering screaming of a colicky baby, but a few months after these penetrating, hearing-damaging cries lightened, I met a parent in the local pharmacy with a similar child. Picking up their colic meds. Oh, they have stuff for that now?
I didn't get the memo.
I am resuming my attempts to find ways to combat my cancer.
Thank you, Julie, for such a strong message of "Don't Give Up!"
SMILE - gloom disappears, let nothing blight your smile. Grim death, disease or failure can not daunt us. Disaster can not really touch us for within our Souls we possess the unconquerable, unchangeable ever new bliss of God.
ReplyDeleteMy deep bone biopsy was negative. 9 weeks of daily radiation is next. I am a joy billionaire. I will light the match of smiles. I will fan the irresistible fire of smiles. Lets carry the fragrant, purifying torches of smiles for all hearts.
Thanks for your this update Leslie! Good to hear from you again. Hope and pray for a cure for you. xx
DeleteThank you, Jenny!
DeleteHang in there, trojanvirus. One of the benefits of cancer is unveiling the good in all of us, and making us take a closer look at our Maker, which is always a nice thing to do.
DeleteThe Dr. told me today he was going to go for a full cure. He said he was sure it would happen. The radiation will be pinpoint accurate within a millimeter. I must pay my karmic debt. I have a very strong hunch you will be well about the same time I am. Health, sickness - false shadows on the screen of duality.
ReplyDeleteLove it. I will do my best to make your hunch accurate. You prostate guys are a hot topic for cancer right now, getting ALL the funding and research. . . your prospects are looking great!
DeleteLet's not debate karma vs. forgiveness again. Your karmic debt? We have stuff for that now. Have had it for almost two thousand years.
Massive smoochie Hugs heading your way.
As soon as I heard "We found it" I ran home, got in the lotus posture & began doing Hong Sau & Kriya. I drank my bottle of Lourdes water then starting reading "Scientific Healing Affirmations".
DeleteI do 36 to 48 Kriya's every morning and every night after I do the 36 energization exercises. Then after all of that I sit there for 30 minutes to an hour and look for the colored rays of my chakras...Om Mani Padme Om.
I don't know what all of this does but it's not as useless than golf & piano.
I'm loving your responses above Leslie. You are an inspiration! xx
ReplyDeleteBerlin, November 10, 1837:
Delete"The trip. . left me cold. . . the rocks which I saw were neither steeper nor more intimidating than the feelings of my soul, the wide cities were not more lively than my own blood, the tavern tables no more filled or indigestible than the packets of fantasy I carried with me, and finally, the art not so beautiful as Jenny."
--Karl Marx.
I read this when I was nineteen, I thought of you, and the quote stayed in my head all these years, and I continue to be hard-pressed to find things as beautiful as you, Jenny.
YOU inspired ME. And the echos of your voice kept guiding me back on track for years even as I was far away. Thank you.
Such kind words Leslie! Thank you. I am pleased about that! Thank you for being a friend at CHS and thank you for being a friend now. God bless, love, prayers and hugs,
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